"I do not run to add days to my life. I run to add LIFE to my days."

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Six Word Memoir

This was on a previous post that I rediscovered. I really enjoyed making up my own--these things called 
6 word memoirs
here's some new ones for this season of life:

back to the heart of prayer
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new realities life gives new love
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how to let go and control

Here are my favorite previous 6 word memoirs:

Continual Pursuit of Balance and Stability

I was Mom's 40th Birthday Surprise 

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Walk the Talk my friend


So, I can tell that my words and common phrases (very common and perhaps over-used?) with the children I work with, are being shined down upon from the heavens, I believe- to speak to this lowly human; so unworthy, but thankful none the less! Here is what I’ve been learning, in the glory of the illuminated screams and tantrums:

So back to these common phrases I utter to children every day; along with most adults present in their lives I am sure. I will commonly say, for example, “you need to control your body”  or that something like spitting on the floor is plainly, “not ok” or time to clean up is just “not your choice” are revealing themselves to be very applicable in my own life. 
I can hold myself from spitting, at least until i'm outside on a run. I know when it is ok and not ok, and I fortunately have ample opportunities to make choices like when to do something, on my own time schedule. However this does not mean I cannot relate to the three year old. Yep, I’m in my mid twenties and still  learning lessons these pre-schoolers are beginning to master. No shame though; I know I’m not alone! 

Whether these phrases are speaking to breaking bad habits of communication, or gaining control through discipline in terms of healthy intake and exercise of your body; I see clearly, thanks to this revelation from the heavens, that viewing these things NOT as an option or choice but as one of my very medications to function and survive; I’d be much better off! Sounds to me like when God’s prophets proclaim over and over again in the Old Testament or Hebrew Bible, “obey these laws…SO THAT, it may go well with you”. You see, I am diagnosed with Depression and anxiety and it is no secret of mine, nor of almost every family member close to me. I have had to accept that It is our similar cross to bear so to speak; the cards we were dealt, but it is not hopeless or the end of the world, even when depression tells you this repeatedly. 

Thankfully the way I interact with these little human beings tells me that to be better off, I need to act in such a way that these choices (control your body, that's not ok, it is not up to you) do not appear as actual choices. From now on I would like to make it my understanding that unhealthy habits of mine are no longer an option to choose but are simply not available to do. I must practice what will help me be better off; habits I just simply must practice to do every day. Correction, not simply, because if it was I wouldn't be writing this, but someday I hope them to at least come more naturally. FOR, the end result with the children, we are taught in Montessori, is ironically; what I claim so often to desire;
Independence!
And so, as of late I am telling KORI these common phrases simultaneously, as I look on in true empathy when these little ones struggle to put on their jackets, snow boots, gloves and mittens by themselves; when they become upset and lash out in their frustration when we suggest they first ask a friend to help them, before turning to a seemingly more wise and competent person (the teacherJ) to do the hard work for them.  

With freedom comes discipline, as I wrote a theory paper on this very topic, and girl, is it true! Freedom as an adult can so easily go awry and come to bite you in the butt if not used in moderation and consciousness. Just as I need to regulate the children's freedoms through these common phrases; I hope to really begin limiting my own freedoms as well; I guess that is another way of practicing discipline. 
That is something I have been aiming to do-even through this dry season of blogging. But I am glad to be back. I truly love to write-to express myself in such a way, I cannot deny is a special gift and I know this not because of people telling me, but because of the joy that overflows when my hands and fingers ache after a journal entry. Thank you for reading and always the feedback, responses, etc.
And I would love to hear some other “common phrases” too. It can get tiring to listen to one’s self, as I’m sure it is for the children too! At least they are in a sensitive period for repetition and language though, right Montessorians? ;)

Friday, September 21, 2012

Why do they call it Work?



In defence -but more importantly- to promote a Clearer Understating
of 
Montessori Education
 

"We have been wrongly accused of wanting to deprive children of Joy! But our intention is neither to give them joy nor to take it away. Quite the contrary. The child in our prepared environment does not play. He works, and greed disappears; he works, and laziness disappears. He wants to do everything!"

 
-Education and Peace by Dr. Maria Montessori
 
Compared to traditional education, the child is the center of the learning in Montessori and we are serving them. This is our foundation. They will learn and we will learn through them.

Friday, April 13, 2012

Trusting in my Happiness

These are lyrics from the song "Such Great Heights" by the band Postal Service, that truly reflect a beautiful relationship of mine: here it is,

I, am thinking it's a sign
that the freckles In our eyes are mirror images
and when We kiss they're perfectly aligned.
And I, have to speculate
that God himself Did make us into corresponding
shapes like Puzzle pieces from the clay.

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Really?
Yes.
- Thanks, you know who you are :)

Endnote:
The link however is a cover of the song by the band - Iron&Wine

Saturday, February 18, 2012

a life philosophy

I'm listening to audio adrenaline lyrics that are my day right now (this was a few weeks ago...?)

"humbliness is left untasted. you can't live your life to please yourself. to win you've got to come in last place. i get down he lifts me up i get down he lifts me up i get down.
all i needs another day where i can't get away from the many things that drag me down.
when nothing seems to set you free from burdens that you can't carry on your own.
in your darkness he shines through
when you're all alone
he's carrying you!"


There are "la la la la's" throughout the song which are beautiful.



How amazing is this? even though every time recently i feel awful and unworthy and almsot shy to come before God's presence; when I've fallen and chosen darkness once more-Eventually her spirit overcomes me with conviction saying, "Kori-you are my child and you are loved unconditionally- I am already here."

At church last week they played a powerful gospelish/spiritual feeling song--> with the simple but profound message that was repeated again and again- "You see the best in me" And amazing enough this mind-set and philosophy of seeing people anytime at their best, maybe not always what is in front of you-that is what I will strive to do with children (well everyone too)and have learned practical ways to through my 'Montessori education'

Sweet as! (Belize reference-New Zealander phrase for : cool)

I can say with heartfelt thanks and complete faith (as much as possible), that that is what God does everyday, no matter what. The Great Mystery sees you at your highest potential, the closest you are to being made in His likeness.
Genesis 1:27

Sunday, January 8, 2012

God is good ALL the time, ALL the time God is good!

It’s going to be a good year! Maybe even an amazing, awesome, and transforming one. Coming out of a darkness and depression can be the most high, beautiful, thankful place I can be; so maybe it was worth it? Maybe it was a load put on me that I could indeed bare but only through the help of others, God’s love manifested in their prayers and support. I have so many to thank and want to do so, on this blog:
Sara Kelly, Sarah, Mindy, Jenny – my sisters and housemates.
Elaine and Bill Shelden
Holly, Chip, Corinne and Josie and Buster
Molly, Kathy, Aaron, Suzanne, Lorenza, Paige, Haley, Rachel, Emily – my Montessori peers and friends
Jenell Paris – Anthropology professor
Laura Harrington – Dr. of psychology
Patrick, Gretch, Chris, Eddie, Nick – old and new friends!
My new “home” church called Mosaic has provided another amazing spiritual element to my life. I’ve never felt more welcome to a church or any group setting really. I want to share some of the things we reflected on and were asked to answer personally.
How has God tested my faith?
“coming to Urban Home works (the intentional community I live in) and having such passionate and prayerful roommates made me look at God again as a personal being and who I need to communicate with – in order for any good change to come to my life (which has recently been dried with a hardened heart sometimes because I left that relationship with the Lord.) And I forgot when I do so, She speaks! He’s challenged me to face my anger, jealousy, and pride. God has humbled me in the best way and through my education in Montessori too.” -me
Do you know what your best is?
“my best is loving people and seeing their best. Failure and Confidence too.” -me
And another gentleman shared that he thought it was a great question to ask himself and probably had never thought of it before-however he couldn’t find an answer to it. A woman responded to this saying that that was a sufficient answer and not knowing is a good sign that you haven’t arrived yet. I liked that.
Would you be willing to give your best to God?
Heck yes! But your best will not always be recognized by the world – be humbled and ok with it.
Do you have an action plan to begin to use your gifts, strengths, and talents?
Heck yes!
I will continue to be consistent in all areas of life, growing in self-discipline through God’s grace.
I will continue to reach out and ask for help.

**Dr. Laura Harrington opened my eyes to this truth:
“when you ask a person to help you, that is honoring them.”