After some journaling a couple weeks ago, which is not going up on my blog...however I will relay this portion:
"I want someone to read this (my journal entry) and make the decisions for me...this is where i start to fear and hate life when I feel so utterly alone; in that no one else can really do what I have to do and there are no set rules and regulations anymore, I'm grown up (or growing up), no referees anymore, no time-outs, it is all up to me! And it sucks completely and utterly. I don't feel a bit empowered. I feel stuck in who I am, yes I feel at home in my skin more because I know more of who Kori is, but it's this confusing, complex, dangerous side of her I feel is taking over me and turning my day into a digression back into the cave of isolation.
And then Yesterday I wrote:
"Today I was walking up Main Street, All I could think was that I am so happy at this point. I am a graduate-I really did it!!!! As any who know me-this is a pretty large feat. I kept thinking to myself, I am content with the person I am right now. I really feel blessed in my life with the great people surrounding me and the appropriate, healthy, holistic desires within myself to live my life with intentionality, hope and love."
Some of the best advice (from author, Parker Palmer) on how to help a depressed person:
"...found ways to be present to me without violating my soul's integrity, because they were not driven by their own fears, the fears that lead us to either fix it or abandon each other, they provided me with a life line to the human race. That life line constituted the most profound form of leadership I can imagine-leading a suffering person back to life from a living death."
