"I do not run to add days to my life. I run to add LIFE to my days."

Thursday, March 12, 2009

SOC 441: Statement of Vocation

So i wanted to share an assignment i had this semester for one of my classes that i found to be very helpful to do. The title is statement of vocation and that is what i attempted to do, as much as i can, at this early point in my life. Tell me whatcha think;)

I am pursuing a joint calling to create a family with a partner, friend and husband and to serve the community, following Jesus’ greatest commandment to love others, care for the poor, sick, widows and children. This is not the same thing as a career path because I have realized moving up the ladder in a job is not precisely what I desire. Due to much reflection on my interests and complementary skills, the human services are where I see my contribution being the most useful and fulfilling. My particular skill in empathetic listening is what has led me to make a Masters in counseling a future vocational goal. Since it includes more education as a requirement however for now I simply want to get my hands dirty in the “real world”.

I began at Messiah College as a freshman nursing major, very unsure of what I should study. The early years were filled with battling depression in order to continue fooling others and myself as well as trying to find my true self; her wants, desires, passions within a restricted academic program (nursing), allowing little room for growth. However as my dichotomous time at college continued, the best two choices I made were studying abroad and changing my major to Religion. What I’ve learned mostly came from my relationships and recognizing the legitimate need I as an individual have for deep and meaningful connection with people.

If I had the choice, I definitely would have delayed college. This would have given me more time to find my interests, callings and motivations without the overwhelming pressure of paper deadlines, projects and making an entirely new social network. I now feel strongly that not every young person should necessarily be pushed to a four year college if they are not ready.


oh life! (Annalee that is a shout out to you)

Monday, March 9, 2009

ok, one more...

"The most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous."
-Sex and the City

Sunday, March 8, 2009

I am what I am

musical lyrics, sung by Linda Eder (youtube her!!)

"I want more"

I want magic carpets, I want true romance
I want moonlight cruises to the South of France
And I want kisses that go on for days
I want more than this in so many ways

I want more full-filling
I want equal billing
I want champagne chilling at the door
So, in short, I'm saying if you want me- I want more

Give me more relating
Give me less debating
I want all those things I'm waiting for
So, in case you're listening, if you want me
Really want me, if you want me...
I want more!

When did the me that i so long to be, Lose her natural sense of direction?
When did that you that i'm turning into
get a trifle to tense for affection?
Can we ever get over this thing about winning?
Can we ever capture a moment that's past?
If we simply begin with a brand new beginning


After the end of a relationship recently, this is all i'm gonna "post" on the subject because music can always explain things:)

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

FIRST POST OF 2009

In these lyrics, by the genius band Coldplay, I find a strikingly familiar worldview forming in myself.

No I don't want to battle from beginning to end
I don't want a cycle of recycled revenge.
I don't want to follow death and all of its friends

Recently as i'm trying to look at life n a broad sense; 5, 10 years down the line for example and look at the life patterns all around me, i see little hope of much change or variance. "That's just the way things are" type of attitude I do not want to embrace, at least not to the point that i stop questioning why i do what i do, why organizations, businesses, countries, governments, or artists do what they do. Life is so cyclical and I keep coming back to it.

Most of what has been coming to my mind of late is, child rearing. Perhaps this is from attending some parenting classes at my internship or from my curiosity in young children from my psychology of religion class this semester. Whatever the case, I am finding that being in touch with our own experiences from childhood, the good and bad, embarrassing and empowering is important when we decide to bring other people into the world via procreation! Or when we decide to make an intentional difference or relationship with another young person, be that mentoring, teaching, being a friendly neighbor... So much of the basis for a person's identity is formed in the early developmental life stages (childhood) and so I simply think, this complexity of these subjects should be seriously contemplated by all people

Depressing as it may sound in the lyrics, alot of life is battling, hardship, doing things we don't like to do, having to compromise our morals to get ahead, trying to establish an identity, individual to national.

So, who do you think are death's friends?
I thought perhaps death's buddies would be anger, vengeance, greed, hopelessness...

Thursday, December 18, 2008

everytime i read a great quote i feel i must post it on my blog

Although we cannot always preserve our recollection, yet must do so from time to time, and at least once a day, either in the morning or in the evening. In the morning form your intention, and at night examine your conduct, what you have done, said, and thought during the day, for in each of these you may have often offended both God and your neighbor.

Thomas a Kempis

I LOVE THAT QUOTE!
I plan on doing this as a new years resolution as well as NOT
texting or talking(less) on the mobile (cellphone) while driving :/ i know, bad Kori!

what will your new years resolutions be?? come on think...there's still time yet and please, share! this is a safe place ^wink^wink;)


I am a wanderer who wants to become a pilgrim...

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

pigs

so i am thinking, numba 1 my last post was too overwhelmingly academic and LONG/BORING and i should have posted those models, gradually throughout the semester. o well. Numba 2 that my title "Intellectual Joy" should probably change since i'm not really feelin' that JOY per say anymore from college classes! (a little sarcasm) and lastly, Numba 3 molly our house's kitty is curled up in a ball next to me on my bed while i finish my last papers of the semester and it is just too precious!!!

this post has nothing to do with pigs but heck, pigs permeate almost every part of my life, hehe.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

What I've been thinking about this Fall Semester

These are 4 briefs describing four different ways Christians can think about other religions...(Christian Theologies of Religions) which I had written throughout this semester for class.

I am posting them here for discussion purposes, so please...what do you think of them? is there one or none or more than one you connect or agree with? I have yet to write my own persuasive essay for the end of the semester paper, but that will be coming soon and I hope to grow from writing it.

The Total Replacement Model

Argument Synopsis

Most evangelicals would accept the total replacement model of theology in understanding people of other religions. In essence this model sees little to no value in other religions. It holds to the gospel message as the ultimate answer to all faith-lacking religions, including its own; Christianity.

Foundational Features

The Replacement Model conforms to Barthian theology of the inadequacy of religion while simultaneously revealing Christianity’s uniqueness and ability to go deeper than theology. Their unshakable ground consists of the Four Alones which describe how Christianity stands out among other religions; through grace, faith, Christ and scripture!

Strengths

The major strength of this model is that Christianity is broken down to its very core message which can be helpful to confused, seeking people. It is both humble in acknowledging the problems with religion in general but strongly convicted that Christianity is the only one saved by grace.

Problems

The major problem with this model is the overall attitude towards other religions. There is a lack of respect, which tends to divide rather than unite. So, its goal is not inter-religious dialogue but rather to foster “religious competition” causing negative views of God.

Implications for Applied Theology

The total replacement model sees no purpose engaging other religious people. If they do it’s to share the gospel but leave the rest up to God. However, the partial replacement branch off of this model has more potential for inter-faith dialogue due to their understanding that it is part of living out their faith.

Conclusion

I disagree with the replacement model’s argument. I do admire the fervor to share the gospel; however the interpretation of scripture is not holistic but taken out of context. And a group who is unwilling to listen or show enough decency to leave room for God’s revelation outside of their faith is un-Christian.

The Fulfillment Model

Argument Synopsis

According to the fulfillment model, non-Christian religions can be ways of salvation. In being faithfully Trinitarian, God’s saving grace can be realized through his Spirit in infinite ways by anyone. And it will work in ways consistent with Christ. God’s kingdom is greater than the Church; however there is no salvation without the Church.

Foundational Features

This model seeks balance between the universal side of God and the particular side of Jesus. And so Jesus does not need to be everyone’s efficient cause of salvation but will ultimately be the final cause. It is part of the church’s duty to be dialogical because Jesus is the fullest revelation of God’s saving grace.

Strengths

This model recognizes a greater openness and freedom that the trinity possesses. By engaging non-Christians out of belief that God’s grace and truth inhabit them as well, creates fruitful inter-faith dialogue. This position seeks genuine, two-way dialogue with others without forsaking the Church’s necessary presence in the world.

Problems

Even though the model seeks balance through the Holy Spirit working in other religions, Jesus’ particularity outweighs God’s universality. A problem within this theology is the risk of falling out of Christian tradition due to religious pluralism. The non-negotiable aspects of all religions must not become abolished or ignored with the fulfillment model.

Implications for Applied Theology

Sharing of the gospel is equally important as gaining new truths from other religions that do not contradict but enhance our biblically based revelations. This model challenges those who keep their Christian faith in isolation to embody the dialogical church we are called to be. Dialoguing fosters peaceful relations with making visible God’s reign on earth.

Conclusion

Pioneering catholic theologians have led the church throughout history as no other Christian church has previously done by exploring the universal side of God’s love to affirm the positive value in other religions. I agree with this model’s visionary attempts to balance limited human assumptions with God’s mystery and infinite nature.

The Acceptance Model

Argument Synopsis

The Acceptance model seeks to focus more on the real differences that exist between the religions rather than the deceivingly false universal similarities. Through diversity one can find unity of all religions. A high Christology is not compromised, but action prior to theology is the preferred chronology of dialogue.

Foundational Features

The “good neighbor” policy is the essential ground on which any dialogical relationship can begin, if both sides hope to find fulfillment with a greater awareness of the divine. An embracing of each religion’s particularities is fundamental in this model. Reason is required to step down for humility to compensate.

Strengths

The explanations for how the Trinity displays both God’s overarching plan of diversity in humans as well as the divine itself is stimulatingly though-provoking. And uniformly embracing each religion’s particularities shows the strength in this model’s capabilities of respect toward the other.

Problems

With the utter rejection of any common universals between religions there is less hope for a unified religious body in which all can feel an equal, legitimate part of its greater whole. Christians with the priority of conversion may be more apt to reject this because of their exclusivist position.

Implications for Applied Theology

An adherent to this mode will have the goal of friendship first. Having no agenda other than to listen and share. It is all simply an opportunity to learn, never to overcome certain boundaries to reach a comfortable commonality. Self-criticism is mandatory for creating that basis for a relational interaction.

Conclusion

Its insistence upon orthopraxy and orthodoxy among the religions makes it unique and fitting to its name. Its postmodern influence as well forms to our current globalizing world. I agree with the statement, “our unity is in our diversity” and that this model holds great potential for furthering inter-religious dialogue.

The Mutuality Model

Argument Synopsis

The three bridges of the Mutuality Model hope to convey in different languages how Christians, by altering their perception of Jesus, can be able to foster authentic dialogue with others. All religions share a mutual agenda to move from self-centeredness to other-centeredness. Inter-faith dialoguing can be modeled after the Trinity.

Foundational Features

This model upholds relationships and within Christianity focuses more on the Universality of the faith and Jesus to accomplish that. Approaching other religions on their own level, balancing our commonalities with the distinctive differences is essential. Religious differences do matter however they converge on the crucial doctrines of experience.

Strengths

Drawing upon personal experiences in the Mystical Bridge is a strong aspect of this model because of its ability to transcend doctrinal disputes and accentuate another part of all religions. Many can relate more to the Ethical-Practical Bridge because it allows for productivity outside of them, covertly opening meaningful dialogue.

Problems

Appearing to be pluralistic and relativistic is for some problematic. This model risks sounding contradictory in its claim to honor all religious differences while also claiming that all religions are not equal. Exclusivists from any religion will find little value in this model because of such sentiments.

Implications for Applied Theology

A healthy and natural type of dialoguing is foreseen with the Mutuality Model because it will take place most likely in comfortable environments where both practitioners are assumed equal and valuable to the “team”.

Conclusion

Again the philosophical, mystical and practical bridges that make up this model create a wide array of opportunity for dialoguing. Theologian Raimon Panikkar summarizes such complexity with simplifying the mutuality model down to a mystery in all religions, which is both transcendent and immanent.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

life in motion with constant stops.

I've noticed that recently, for some reason, i enjoy putting a period at the end of everything, like when it is not necessary. And for the first time today it dawned on me ironically that maybe this has to do with something deeper underneath the surface of my life. That is what i am attempting to do for the moment; update you readers and myself on the happenings of Kori's life in Harrisburg.

I will use Charles Dickens' introduction to his Tale of Two Cities to begin. It was the worst of times and it was the best of times now i am finished classes(best of times) and now i have to study and write many papers(worst of times)! I know the end is so close and a new beginning with it, however i'm still moving at the pace of a turtle most days, but with millions of thoughts/ideas/plans fleeting through my brain all the while, which gives the alterior feeling of moving too quicly, sprinting without thinking ahead! I bet this makes little sense to any one unfamiliar with well, there's no name for it i suppose, but this "state of mind" if you will.

However alot of good has come out of this "turtle pace" i've been taking strides in and one of them i am reminded daily, not every waking moment, but at least once a day; that there is hope. There is more to Kori's life than college, academia, papers, grades, etc. and that if she can remember this and act upon it by living out other areas of her life in relation to the college part, than the hope can sustain her. I am growing and I can see it in these tiny decisions i make each day.

Sometimes the decision is only visible to me and creates an unfortunate and unintended consequence in my close relationships, because i desire more recognition of my small but large "accomplishments". This i think is a lesson worth learning and trying hard to change about oneself and that is, to remember the other person, their life situation, their daily trials and tribulations, joys and ups and consider them with as much importance as your own. And i need not desire their recognition too highly because as we all know and learn from human interaction and experience, people will let you down, even without meaning or trying to but that is just the way things are. And is it not better to get over that hump early on so that it becomes less of a hump; in time instead of wiping out and landing on your face you will merely trip a little and then it is so little and insignificant that it is laughable! And what little things make you laugh on a dreary, hard average Tuesday of the week can actually become monumental in altering your day to a sunny one:) (i know, corny) but, believe me i have found this is how and why the small things in life actually are the most important things and the "biggest" in terms of significance and meaning to us as human beings.

AND p.s. --> laughter is seriously the BEST kind of medicine, this is why all my friends who i cherish the most all just make me laugh and enjoy life!
Thank you to them, Period.

Monday, December 1, 2008

Music speaks

Just because i'm losing
Doesn't mean i'm lost
Doesn't mean i'll stop
Doesn't mean i will cross.

Just because i'm hurting
Doesn't mean i'm hurt
Doesn't mean i didn't get what i deserved
No better and no worse.
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This (Coldplay's lyrics from song "Lost") is what I would have wanted to say to any friend or family member, when i came home for this past Thanksgiving holiday--to explain where I am right now in my life. that is, if i could sing instrumentally and communicate in that ideal way:)

I am finishing up this semester, constantly checking myself, my mood, and making myself persevere to not slip down depression's slippery slope and to fulfill my goal of completing my education and attaining my college degree (at last)
OH yeah, and for the benefit of myself in every way!

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Grace

Grace is my grandmother on my father's sides' name and I used to think it was blah, old-fashioned and just not a name i would name my future children. But today, and i think its been long and coming, my view has changed:) ha ha. What i am trying to say is, grace, just the concept of it is something right now in my faith that i can hold on to and believe in with all of me! Driving in the car today I've been repeating the U2 Song "Grace" and i would like to share the lyrics.

Grace, she takes the blame
She covers the shame
Removes the stain
It could be her name (my favorite part of the song! listen to it)

Grace...
It's a name for a girl
It's also a thought that, changed the world
And when she walks on the street
You can hear the strings
Grace finds goodness in everything

Grace, she's got the walk
Not on a ramp or on chalk
She's got the time to talk
She travels outside of karma, karma
She travels outside... of karma

When she goes to work, you can hear the strings
Grace finds beauty in everything

Grace...
She carries a world on her hips
No champagne flute for her lips
No twirls or skips between her fingertips
She carries a pearl in perfect condition

What once was hurt
What once was friction
What left a mark
No longer stings...
Because Grace makes beauty
Out of ugly things

Grace finds beauty in everything